Weekly Posts 9-14 of the Weight Loss Journey to Lose 135 lbs.
UGGHHHHH!
I have been resisting this so much!!!
I really want to be vulnerable and open. I really want others to see what it really looks like when you are on a very long journey of weight loss, but it is definitely humbling? nerve-racking? cringy? to relive this.
Here it is… another 8 weeks of how I got here.
Exactly as it was then.
The main thing with these eight weeks…
I was a bit lost on how to get back on track after falling off the wagon for three weeks that I talked about in this one Week 1-8. I just told myself that I needed help… and I also didn’t know what I needed… but I did… but maybe not how to implement it? How to get started? How to not get lost in a whole new world of all of it?
- Sought Help & Accountability: A trusted friend reached out to me with a weight loss program that included structure and supplements. And I also sought out help from a military spouse that I was friends with at a previous duty station offered to bring me along to be able to talk to a personal trainer and nutritionist at a meet up.
- Set Goals & Created a Point of No Return: Set a physical goal for myself that had a timeline. I also exposed myself because I realized that the more that I put myself out there with the things that I didn’t want people to see like my weight… I was creating a point of no return for myself. Included measurements for all to see.
- Awareness with Food Consumption: Started tracking my food, changed up my grocery list and tracking my water. Swapped soda and iced tea for water.
- Got moving: Zumba fitness and YouTube workouts. Paid attention to my posture more.
- Work on the Mind: Mindset & emotional work started. 80/20 rule. Practiced a quick reset with eating more than I probably should have with the family staycation and celebratory food but got back into things right away.
DISCLAIMER: I am posting word for word where I was over 10 years ago, and I am not editing. I am allowing you to see exactly what was happening and what I was posting before becoming a nutritionist trainer who followed an evidence-based practice. there were also some moments where I did not actually know that my heaviest weight was 265 pounds until I stumbled upon an old medical record.
August 3, 2012: Weight Loss: Thinking a 24 Day Challenge
After last week with finally admitting that I had strayed from the trail, I am in the process of trying to make it right. I am not 100% sure just yet how, but I’m working on it. A lot of my current thoughts are in talking with an old high school friend of mine, (removed name). She has had a life changing experience with Advocare.
Originally I had started chatting with her about the 24 Day challenge after seeing her success pictures. She is really doing awesome. And I want that. I do. I really want to change my life. I don’t want to be a fatty lifer. What I really want is to be that conversation on a phone about the amazing progress this girl had with weight loss and recorded her whole journey to help inspire others!
Here it is. I am going to tell you that I am seriously thinking about starting the challenge with Adrian, the hubs, at the end of this month. I welcome you to try it with us!
This is the link I have for the system and I’m sure that (removed name) would be happy to chat! (Link removed – no longer available)
I’m heading out this weekend to makeover our cabinet contents to prepare for eating clean. Going to go through my favorite recipes and see how I can make them healthier. Then when the end of the month happens…it’s on!
Now the dress? Well that’s the one I want. But I want it in a size 10. That may not be a huge goal to some minds but I’m tired of the 14-16 teeter totter. I’m tired of teeter from normal to plus size. There’s never anything that you can find in the regular section that’s big enough and never anything small enough in the plus size. So. That dress. Size 10. By November. United States Marine Corps Ball.
August 10, 2012: Weight Loss: Never Starting!
I feel like I’m never starting this full effort towards my weight loss. It’s time to go bold or go home! Those who know how much I’ve battled with the thought of my weight know that what you’re about to read is the most difficult thing for me to type. I don’t like people knowing the number. I don’t like people looking at me like they’re trying to size me. I got here because I was so concerned with what everyone else in my life thought that I stress & depression ate my way here. No longer will I let that own me. No longer will I give that power to someone else or a number, so here it is in all forms. No excuses, just explanations.
- Weight: 205.5 lbs Today at 9:23 AM (I’ll have my measurement breakdown later)
- Highest weigh-in to date: 243.5 lbs on 3/11/2008 (The day I went in to labor with Aiden)
- Weight goal: 144 lbs (Last seen in High School when I was running and watching what I ate)
Progress
- Downloaded MyFitnessPal – so far I love it! You can scan the bar codes of what you’re eating to put it in your food diary!
- Downloaded MapMyRUN – Not sure about this one yet. I wanted to have a way to figure out how far I was going, so I’ll come back to this one later.
- Printed off the Grocery List at (Link removed – no longer available) so I can start getting our refrigerator ready.
- Started rummaging through my Healthy Living pinterest board for good inside exercises. (Link removed – no longer available)
- Received in samples of Spark & Slam from (name removed) from Advocare (Link removed – no longer available)
Tonight I will exercise.
And please…if you want to do this with me, I will gladly add you on MyFitnessPal so we can encourage one another!
August 17, 2012: Weight Loss: Valiant attempt with little result
We have one pound! Ok ok…that’s not like scream it from the rooftop kind of progress but it’s still progress. Besides, I didn’t get to this weight overnight. And I know that. It’s just a hard pill to swallow. A friend of mine made that comment recently about his weight loss. It’s really a great reminder though. Great to hear but sucks to hear. I am just not a patient person. I want to wake up tomorrow and poof! Skinny! But if that did happen, I don’t think I would stay skinny. This is the best way to do something. I need to earn the body I want.
- Weight: 204.5 lbs Today at 8:05 AM
- Measurements: 14.25″ neck, 38″ waist, 47″ hips
- Highest weigh-in to date: 243.5 lbs on 3/11/2008 (The day I went in to labor with Aiden)
- Weight goal: 144 lbs (Last seen in High School when I was running and watching what I ate)
Progress
- Broke out the Zumba Fitness for the XBox Kinect. Made it through clearing a bunch of the steps for a 25 minute workout before I felt my legs felt like they’d give out.
- MyFitnessPal has been going good! I love love love how it tells you where you’ll be in 5 weeks if you keep that progress up!
- Water. Lots and lots of water.
And please…if you want to do this with me, I will gladly add you on MyFitnessPal so we can encourage one another!
August 24, 2012: Weight Loss: Feelin it?
I’m feelin’ it for sure! I don’t know exactly what it is this week but I feel fantastical! It’s as though all the negativity has found itself a new home and my mind, body & soul is ready to do this. That may not make total sense to most but I have a horrible emotional eating habit. I mentioned that in Weight Loss: Fell off the wagon. Well, I found something. Ready? Sheer awesomeness. Melissa McCreery, Ph.D.’s Too much on her plate. I signed up to her “5 Simple Steps to Move Beyond Overwhelm With Food and Life”. I definitely recommend! I just received step 2.
- Weight: 202 lbs Today at 9:30 AM
- Measurements: 14.25″ neck, 37.5″ waist, 45.5″ hips
- BMI: 33.6
- Highest weigh-in to date: 243.5 lbs on 3/11/2008 (The day I went in to labor with Aiden)
- Weight goal: 144 lbs (Last seen in High School when I was running and watching what I ate)
Progress
- Ice cold water has replace soda and iced tea for me. I drink my 2 cups of coffee and then nothing but water!
- Blogilates! My favorite find so far!!! I’ve been doing the beginner’s video and oh it hurts! So good!
- Calories…doing pretty good! The water is helping. It doesn’t taste as good but it’s helping!
- Too much on her plate step 2
- OH! And I’m practicing & being more conscious of my posture. You’d be amazed at the soreness after doing that all day!!!
And please…if you want to do this with me, I will gladly add you on MyFitnessPal so we can encourage one another!
Snagged this picture from a blog I follow because well…it fit this week to a T! (Link removed – no longer available)
August 31, 2012: Weight Loss: Oops!
I was bad this last week. Ok well not bad bad but still bad. My cousin came to visit and I just had to go to that amazing Japanese place for take out. Then it was an awesome Italian place for pizza and garlic knots on the way back from the beach. Finally, it was baking the hands down most sweetly delicious butternut squash casserole. BUT it was worth it! I cannot do a lifestyle with food that is totally absent of times like this. Normally, I would sit back and say, “well I just ruined my diet” and throw in the towel. Not this time. I’m in this for the long run!
- Weight: 205.5 lbs Today at 8 AM
- Measurements: 14.25″ neck, 37.5″ waist, ” hips
- BMI: 34.1
- Highest weigh-in to date: 243.5 lbs on 3/11/2008 (The day I went in to labor with Aiden)
- Weight goal: 144 lbs (Last seen in High School when I was running and watching what I ate)
Progress
- Finally looking into Advocare more now that the hubby is home
- Too much on her plate Step 3: “Instead” plan
And please…if you want to do this with me, I will gladly add you on MyFitnessPal so we can encourage one another!
September 7, 2012: Weight Loss: Ever punish yourself?
Thursday night, I punished myself. I worked out hard before bed after all day long procrastinating. Not going to happen. I want this change. My motivation is going to kick the crud out of this unhealthy body if it’s the last thing I do! Looking to even joining up with a friend’s fitness group this Saturday! She mentioned there’s going to be a nutritionist and a personal trainer. I’ve been hearing her talk about the group for about 2 months now. I think it’s time I stop dragging my feet. It’s support, more motivation and accountability.
- Weight: ERROR lbs Today (That’s right. Error. No matter what I do or where I put it, the scale seems to have kicked the bucket)
- Measurements: 14.25″ neck, 37.5″ waist, 45.5″ hips
- BMI:
- Highest weigh-in to date: 243.5 lbs on 3/11/2008 (The day I went in to labor with Aiden)
- Weight goal: 144 lbs (Last seen in High School when I was running and watching what I ate)
Progress
- Blogilates! I’ve moved myself up to some of her regular videos. I really have loved the burn from each one so far but here’s just a few I’ve been doing in case you want to join in with me! POP Pilates: Labor Day Workout, Abs All Night Challenge and POP Pilates: Saddlebag Shaver OH! And the arm challenge…done that one a bunch and all I can say is OW!!!
- I also watched her joint video with Davey Wavey Fitness. He talked about a 80/20 food rule. 80% of the time eat the healthy foods and 20% of the time indulge a little. You need a balance in order to make it work. Finally! Someone talking my language! I need that little bit every now and then. It keeps me going on changing this from a diet to a lifestyle change.
- Too much on her plate‘s Step 4: inner critic & Step 5: support. I think I have been doing pretty well with this. I actually defeated my inner critic to force myself into a late night workout. That bossy voice was trying to tell me that it was too late and I missed my chance. No! I call the rules!
- Resource I found for calculating your burned calories: Calorie Burn Calculator
And please…if you want to do this with me, I will gladly add you on MyFitnessPal so we can encourage one another! You can click on the badge along the right side to find me!
Takeaway
Wow. That really is a lot for me to go back and read. But I think as much as I am surprised in a reminiscent way. I am also pretty dang proud of myself. I didn’t give myself that kind of credit back then, but I didn’t stay down. I kept moving forward, and that’s some thing that I pride myself on now. I don’t stay down. I keep moving. The only way that you don’t make it through whatever it is that you’re trying to make it through is if you stay down. You quit. You give up. I didn’t three weeks of “falling off the wagon” stop me from moving forward again.
I know it sounds redundant. It sounds simple.
But don’t give up.
If you feel weary, take a pitstop.
Give yourself a day and then start back up.
Just don’t stop moving forward.
You. You are what’s on the line here.
It may sound dramatic, but you are what’s at stake here.
Just keep thinking of yourself… what would I tell my best friend? What I tell them to just give up or would I help them up so that they can keep moving forward?
Because you are the one person you have to live your entire life with.
Be your own best friend for once.
